First ultrasound

Once again, I'm sorry to be so late on the update!  I feel like I start all of my posts this way...I'm a terrible blogger! 

We finally had our ultrasound on Tuesday...that was the looongest wait ever!!  I was so incredibly nervous the night before, the morning of and all the waiting we did in the waiting room and then in the u/s room.  I was sick to my stomach.  I don't think I've ever been that nervous.  I was nervous about what we might see or what we might not see.  I have continued to pray that the Lord would give us whatever He saw fit, and whatever He thought I/we could handle.  Even though we willingly put two embryos in, we became very nervous about carrying and having twins.  I never once prayed for it to only be one...I couldn't fathom praying that other perfect, beautiful embryo away. 

As my husband, being the ever cool as a cucumber type guy he is, tried to carry on general conversation with me all morning...I kept snapping at him "STOP talking to me".  He's in the waiting room looking at a GQ magazine and talking about the coolest cuff links that are in style....WHAT??  I wasn't sure how he could even focus?!  After a good while, we finally get called back....only to sit in the u/s room for what seemed like an eternity.  My sweet dr came in and talked to us for a minute and then started with the u/s on the outside of my abdomen.  As soon as the screen popped up and I could see one sweet little sac, I just melted.  My nerves calmed immediately and I just smiled.  He couldn't see too much with that one, so it was time for the wand.  He first measured my ovaries and then squared in on the little babe :) The one little babe.  He did some measurements of my uterus, yolk sac and then the baby.  Everything was measuring exactly on track...what a relief!!  Then we were able to hear the heartbeat....wow, what a beautiful thing :))))  It was a perfect 140.  I couldn't have been more relieved or happier than that moment right there.

I've been doing nothing but thanking and praising God for this MIRACLE.  It most definitely has not sunk in yet.  Of course I'm still a bit on edge, just staying prayerful that our little babe stays put for a good while.  I know it's the infertile part of me that fears the worst, and also the worrier in me too :(  I know it's in God's hands, and all I can do is rest in that.  Our next ultrasound is Dec. 18th and I canNOT wait.  Some days I feel worse than others as far as symptoms go, but the days I feel better always scare me...so I look forward to anytime I can see our baby :)  

I will be back to update...hopefully sooner than later!!  Thank you guys soo much for the love :) xoxoxo