Thursday, November 7, 2013

Photo dump...Jaxon Dean

I'm terrible.  I get so frustrated with people that do not update their blogs after having baby, now I know why!  Life is hectic, it's busy.  Life for me, has been amazing with Jaxon...a love I never even knew existed, trite to say, but so true!!  I'm so in love.  Life in other areas has been hard, really really hard...I can't go into detail now or here, maybe one day I will.  I don't even have time for a birth story, other than to say it was HARD stuff!  He was born at 8:05pm on July 21st after days of labor and 2 1/2 hours of pushing...ROUGH!  I can't even put into words the pure JOY this little boy has brought into my life...he is my everything.  So, here are a bunch of pics...I'm gonna try and post them in age order.  Ok, well I was trying to go in age order, but I did it backwards and out of order and I really don't want to re-do it :)  So here's a few pics!  Hope all my sweet followers and friends are doing awesome!!  XOXO















Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Bumpin'

Of course I'm doing terrible at any type of update....shocking, I know!  I do hate when people don't follow up, especially after an infertility journey and they become pregnant.  So far my pregnancy has been going FANTASTIC...it's been a dream :)  Full of lots of kicks, hiccups and twirls letting me know he's definitely going to be a busy body!  We canNOT wait to meet this little guy!  I constantly pray for his health, well being, safety and a swift and easy labor for both of us.  I'm still the little worrier, not sure that will ever change.  I try not to get consumed with thoughts of labor and all the "what if's"....I'm replacing any of those worrisome thoughts with thoughts of an easy and quick labor and delivery!!  Positive affirmations, positive thoughts and lots of prayer :)  This is going to sound crazy, but if anyone watches the Kardashians...I remember seeing Kourtney birth both of her babies so easily and quickly and with so much joy....that's what I am envisioning!!  I'm trying to get those horrid thoughts of screaming, devilish mothers out of my mind LOL.  Anyhow, here are some bump pics!  I've been terrible at taking them, crazy for someone that dreamed of this for so long.

Here is my 5 month bump pic


Here I am at 6 1/2 months (took this yesterday)


In these pics I don't look too different, but trust me I def grew from 5 months to 6 1/2!  I'll be in my 3rd trimester in 2 weeks, eeek!!  In a way it's flying by, in a way it's not.  I'll be back for more updates....hopefully sooner than later!  I'm getting a 3D/4D u/s in a few weeks, so I will def post those :)

 XOXOXO

Friday, February 15, 2013

IT'S A.....

We found out a little early what we're having (17 weeks)!  We didn't try for over 3 years to wait another 3 weeks to find out, so we paid a little extra at a place that does early ultrasounds :)  We are having a BOY!! And, BOY, are we happy and IN LOVE!  Our u/s tech took some extra time with us and we got to watch this boy move all over the place (probably the loaded sugary lemonade that I drank helped with that), and yes I can feel him now, been able to for a week and it's the BEST feeling EVER!!.  He was flipping around like crazy and giving us money shots that were awesome, no doubt he's a boy!  I got several pics, but only have one on my computer...



Here is our sweet baby Jaxon Dean :)  My husband LOVESSS the name Jaxon, as do I, and Dean will be after my sweet Grandpa.  Hopefully you can make out what you're looking at, I learned not everyone can distinguish u/s pics like others can.  We have our OB gender scan in two weeks, where they will do all of the official measuring and whatnot...can't wait to see him again!!  Thank you, again, for all of the love and support of finally getting to this blessed place in our lives!!  We are so grateful and blessed with this sweet baby boy of ours :)

Friday, January 11, 2013

12 weeks!!!

Finally making it out of my first trimester...that's BIG stuff :)  Although, I know 14 weeks is technically the end...I'm sticking with 12, just because I can!  I'm feeling more relief now, however, I'd still like to hear the heartbeat again...like yesterday!!  Sometimes I still wonder if everything is going ok in there, but I'm just trusting in the Lord that it is!


Not much has been going on, just growing a little belly...you know, the one that you kinda just look chubby and not pregnant quite yet!  Nothing fits anymore and I wear leggings like every.single.day.  I'm a little too small to buy the full on maternity pants, but too big for my regular pants.  Here is a pic of my growing belly.  The left was taken the day I found I was pregnant (4 weeks), and the right was taken at 12 weeks (Wednesday)...


My last ultrasound was at 10 weeks, and our little guy looked more and more like a baby, so sweet!  Baby was growing 4 days ahead, which is better than behind...at least for my anxiety ;)  Here is the most recent ultrasound picture...


We are totally feeling boy, I will actually be shocked if it's a girl...I am that convinced!  We will, of course, take either as long as it's HEALTHY!!!  I really thought once I was pregnant I would blog much more often, and do all those fun "bumpdate" posts that people do on the regular.  I feel kind of withdrawn from blogging a bit, not sure why.  I will work on doing more posts, but as most mama's know esp at this stage, there isn't too much to talk about it.  This blog had become an exclusive infertility blog, I never really blogged about anything else...and I'm still at a loss as to what to write about besides baby, lol.  Speaking of infertility, I haven't really even talked about or acknowledged it since I became pregnant.  Well, let me be clear to anyone that is currently struggling or has struggled with IF...it STILL stings, it's mark will always and forever be ingrained in my mind and in my heart.  For the rest of this pregnancy I will probably continue to be apprehensive and nervous.  Something that is so wanted, so tried for, for so long will make you feel that way.  I was reminded this week of the awfulness of infertility when someone very close to me made a comment that took my breath away, in a hurtful way.  I know it wasn't intended the way it came out, but it hurt nonetheless and literally pulled every awful emotion of what we went through, to the surface.  I realized at that moment, that even though there is a baby inside me, some people will still see me as infertile and see that this baby was conceived in a non-traditional way...and they remember that, ouch.  Don't get me wrong, I fully embrace that we endured IVF...I just don't want anyone to view this baby differently because he/she wasn't conceived in our bedroom.  As frustrating and hurtful as the comment was, I love this person sooo much and I know it didn't come from a bad place...it was just a reminder of my IF.  

All is well with us, and my husband started a new job this week!!  Something that we honestly weren't even looking for or praying about, but WOW, what an opportunity that kinda fell in his lap.  We are both so incredibly excited about this great opportunity that couldn't have come at a better time!  The Lord has an amazing plan for each of us, even if we aren't out there seeking it.  He is so good and so full of blessings...we felt blessed before this baby, we felt blessed before this new job...but wow, we are so undeserving.  Last Sunday in church we went over this verse :For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11