Shot time!!

When I say I'm a lazy blogger, I mean it!  I really thought I would be better, especially with this IVF stuff going on.  I don't think anyone is losing sleep over lack of posts, but I do know that some follow my blog and look for updates...and to you guys, I apologize! 

I finished the birth control pills, finally, and I am on my second day of shots...whoohoo!!  My protocol is that I do 2 shots of Lupron a day, 1 shot of Gonal-F and 1 shot of Menapur...4 shots total.  I should be on this protocol for about 10-12 days.  So I learned that the first shot is the hardest!!  Yesterday morning I woke up at 6:45 and laid there thinking about what I was about to do...finally got up a little while later and headed downstairs.  I pulled the vial out of the fridge, got the shot out, wiped a fat roll with some alcohol, grabbed said fat roll with needle in hand...and then froze!!  Got sweaty, my heart raced, my stomach was in knots and then I paced for a while and talked out loud to myself.  If anyone had been around to hear me...it was quite comical.  This is some of what I said OUT LOUD, a conversation between me and the needle: "I can't do this; who does this to themselves willingly; I have to wake Jero up, no I can't wake him up it's too early; I'm just gonna give up this whole cycle I can't do it"  So after all the pacing and talking to myself, I actually realized I hadn't even drawn up the medicine into the needle!!  Geeeze.  So, now I have the medicine in there and my hands are so sweaty I can't even hold the needle :(  Have I mentioned that my entire life I've always had a needle phobia??  So, now it's time to pump myself up, enough with the negative commentary!  Out loud once again: "You got this; lot's of people do this; you want a baby, this is worth it; it's only gonna sting for a second"..and then bam, I just went for it.  It.didn't.even.hurt!  I think I had my eyes closed because I looked down and kinda shocked myself that it was actually in there.  Simple, so far.  This one is a fairly small needle, tomorrow I start two more shots and one of them is a little bit bigger.  I just keep telling myself that it's just a temporary thing and it will, hopefully, all be worth it!! 

Here are my meds...quite overwhelming!  Maybe I should be thankful it's not more, I know some women have to do more than what I'm doing.  I go back next Tuesday to check on how the meds are working.  Hopefully looking at a retrieval date of late October, we'll see! 

Thank you so much, again and again, for all of the love and support :)  I'm blown away by the comments, messages, texts that we're getting right now...we feel the love and we certainly need the support and prayers!  We continue to meditate on His word right now, knowing and feeling that no matter what happens...we are wrapped up in his LOVE and GRACE.  We are doing what we feel is appropriate to do at this point, but we know that ultimately His plan prevails...and good or bad we will hold onto His promises for us everyday. 

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11