Finally making it out of my first trimester...that's BIG stuff :) Although, I know 14 weeks is technically the end...I'm sticking with 12, just because I can! I'm feeling more relief now, however, I'd still like to hear the heartbeat again...like yesterday!! Sometimes I still wonder if everything is going ok in there, but I'm just trusting in the Lord that it is!
Not much has been going on, just growing a little belly...you know, the one that you kinda just look chubby and not pregnant quite yet! Nothing fits anymore and I wear leggings like every.single.day. I'm a little too small to buy the full on maternity pants, but too big for my regular pants. Here is a pic of my growing belly. The left was taken the day I found I was pregnant (4 weeks), and the right was taken at 12 weeks (Wednesday)...
My last ultrasound was at 10 weeks, and our little guy looked more and more like a baby, so sweet! Baby was growing 4 days ahead, which is better than behind...at least for my anxiety ;) Here is the most recent ultrasound picture...
We are totally feeling boy, I will actually be shocked if it's a girl...I am that convinced! We will, of course, take either as long as it's HEALTHY!!! I really thought once I was pregnant I would blog much more often, and do all those fun "bumpdate" posts that people do on the regular. I feel kind of withdrawn from blogging a bit, not sure why. I will work on doing more posts, but as most mama's know esp at this stage, there isn't too much to talk about it. This blog had become an exclusive infertility blog, I never really blogged about anything else...and I'm still at a loss as to what to write about besides baby, lol. Speaking of infertility, I haven't really even talked about or acknowledged it since I became pregnant. Well, let me be clear to anyone that is currently struggling or has struggled with IF...it STILL stings, it's mark will always and forever be ingrained in my mind and in my heart. For the rest of this pregnancy I will probably continue to be apprehensive and nervous. Something that is so wanted, so tried for, for so long will make you feel that way. I was reminded this week of the awfulness of infertility when someone very close to me made a comment that took my breath away, in a hurtful way. I know it wasn't intended the way it came out, but it hurt nonetheless and literally pulled every awful emotion of what we went through, to the surface. I realized at that moment, that even though there is a baby inside me, some people will still see me as infertile and see that this baby was conceived in a non-traditional way...and they remember that, ouch. Don't get me wrong, I fully embrace that we endured IVF...I just don't want anyone to view this baby differently because he/she wasn't conceived in our bedroom. As frustrating and hurtful as the comment was, I love this person sooo much and I know it didn't come from a bad place...it was just a reminder of my IF.
All is well with us, and my husband started a new job this week!! Something that we honestly weren't even looking for or praying about, but WOW, what an opportunity that kinda fell in his lap. We are both so incredibly excited about this great opportunity that couldn't have come at a better time! The Lord has an amazing plan for each of us, even if we aren't out there seeking it. He is so good and so full of blessings...we felt blessed before this baby, we felt blessed before this new job...but wow, we are so undeserving. Last Sunday in church we went over this verse :For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
